Julie’s Poem
This morning I was sorry
Sorry that you were hurt
This evening I am angry
Angry that you are gone.
Hurt by a dumb mistake
That silence right won’t make
The words that won’t be spoken
Will leave hearts sadly broken.
How could you weigh a few
seconds of an old habit
Over weeks of your boo
Saying that he loves you.
Great couples are not those
That never have a problem
They’re those that see the rose
Rather than see the thorn.
And if you are so self-righteous
Devoid of imperfections
Explain to me your lie
The one you wrote last night
Or when you let my dog out
I judged you not for careless
Or thought the worst scenario
But saw your good intentions.
The act that you can’t bear
hurt because you assumed
Intent that wasn’t there
That’s what seemed as if doomed.
And so instead of judging
Why do you ask me not
What questions burn inside you
That torture you for naught?
You missed an act of love
I planned for weeks on end
You lost a treasure trove
Of memories I made.
You lost out an asado
My first night on the boat
A bed made of rose petals
A wall full of love letters.
You took my time for granted
When I saved it for you
My time is my religion
I was let down by you.
So next time you get hurt
Ask questions, don’t assume
The worries that consume
You, may not be in facts grounded.
I’m only just a human
I fall but I get up
I had love in my heart
You hurt me with a dart.
You were raised as a Christian
He gave his other cheek
And yet when you felt slighted
You played to hide and seek.
I seek now, hide no more, girl
I miss you, in my heart
I miss our conversations
I miss your incantations.
I miss you in the bedroom
I miss you on our hikes
I miss you going to Starbucks
I miss our long, great hugs.
I miss your bright enthusiasm
I miss your great support
I miss playing detective
I miss waking in snow.
I miss sharing my days, love
I miss making you smile
I miss holding you close, love
I miss you by a mile.
My Dad has always told me
That in order to blame one
He needs to both have hurt us
And meant to have that done.
It’s clear I meant no harm, Jul
And no damage was made
Just look at my intentions
I even miss your name.
If one day you feel lonely
Just know that up this hill
There’s one guy who thinks solely
‘Bout this Jack’s only Jill.
--Marina del Rey, February 13th, 2021 to Altadena, February 19th, 2021
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